Life is an exploration

ok - its been over a year since Ive posted to this space and I figure it`s time to update everyone what`s happened in 2007.   My primary intention is to be in touch and share some major changes that have happened in my life over the past year and give you a sense of where I`m at right in regards to a transition coming up in May.    I really want to include those interested in my decisions so thanks to those of you who already have been in touch.    My compass currently points towards Tokyo where my heart is :)

1. wiki - if you want to play - this is the technology for you!  I consider this a participatory means of keeping in touch - everyone is invited to help me edit my wiki - I put new knowledge in it several times a week - life is my research - research is my life!   If you want to start your own wiki (personal or organizational) please don`t hesitate to get in touch with me - this is not a passion that will die!
   
2. facebook - one world - thats pretty much it.   I appreciate that almost every walk of life has shown up in this space someway somehow - it is a powerful way for me to communicate with the diverse community I have created - thank you for all of you who have accepted my invitations to be in this community.  If you want to read more about my thoughts around facebook and all the research that has gone into my decision,  look no further:  http://chinarut.wikispaces.com/Facebook   if research bores you, then just get your ass in facebook and have fun!
   
3. email - ok - this has been around for what amounts to 17 years for me so it`s a matter of being clear with everyone how I use it these days.   now that most of my chatter (personal and business) has moved to facebook, most of my email tends to be `action-oriented` - things that require follow-up and mailing lists.   Fortunately I don`t have a business relationship with all of you (that would drive me insane) so I can handle my inbox these days which is a godsend!   that said, Google Mail has been kind to me :)   I prefer you reach out to me on facebook if in doubt.
   
4. google docs - now that I`m official about jumping into the `say no to email` bandwagon - this is another outlet that`s been good to me.   I just *love* creating documents with people - I think its a way to organize our ideas and create something *together* - there is a bit of magic that happens when you can simultaneously work on the same document together - at a distance.   My latest find in this paradigm is mind42.com - i intend to explore it further (first map) and always looking for people who are willing to evaluate cutting edge technologies with me!
   

Current Location: Bangkok, Thailand
Current Mood: open
Current Music: 1963 - New Order, Substance

ok - i debated whether i should comment to my own thread and realized I, the blogger, am the main thread! :D

I wrote up town hall notes for the community and spent most of day organizing my thoughts around Second Life and writing Philip a nice followup note which led to sharing this vision with him:

You dance away to your favorite music and it feels so good.   You love it when you're dancing alone.   Another dancer steps into your space and for a moment, a tinge of shyness comes over you.   But wait - you're an avitar and you're still alone in real life!   You give up that thought and keep dancing free in your self-expression - uncontrolled by the judgement of others.   You dance like nobody's watching.   What's so is they do see you and they absolutely love it.   You continue to interact in-world and you play with dance moves - you mirror each other - it's just like this in real life!   So you keep in touch and choose to meetup on a dance floor in real life.   You both discover a connection unreal - individually and then as partners.   You've found a partner you may explore every aspect of your life together: business, dancing, career, well being, you name it - you come to the realization and look each other in the eye that you are dance partners for life.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: dancing

ok - I clearly feel a bit nuts for being online at this hour - it's 4:30 AM!  Getting up at this hour is not really all that abnormal for me - I actually like it and it's my intention every night to go to bed by 10 PM (yes, in my younger years, I clearly made fun of folks like myself and now I get it!)

Evonne was cool to tell me about the Town Hall with Philip Linden (aka Philip Rosedale).    I told myself if I was up at this hour, I'd go - well - I went to sleep at around 11pm and I promptly got up at 3:45 AM, did some stretching and feel great!   the event is going to on in about 1/2 hour - it's only 3pm for you folks in California ;-)

okey doke - I had better jump in-world - I'm really excited to hear the CEO of Linden Lab speak and give my inspiration to be an International Liaison some umph.   I applied for the position and didn't make the cut and nothing's going to stop a vision to bring "virtual dancing" alive.   We're not talking about Komami's Dance Dance Revolution here folks - we're talking full blown, you can see me dance on this nice wood floor I have in my office here in Thailand anywhere in the world!

I am very well aware the virtual world sheds many barriers for many of you out there so given I, myself, is included - more power to us dancers!

See you in-world!

Current Location: Pooley (255,4)
Current Mood: dancing
Current Music: oh - almost forgot the tunes! Sasha - Expander XP

We're back from Surin and happy to share that Morn and I are doing well. To clarify what happened: Morn was getting ready to come back to Bangkok last Thursday and slipped in the bathroom. She bled a lot and fell unconscious. Our doctor was really great to fly to the northeast to take care of Morn and we spent the next 4 days in Surin to let her recover. To all those who have been curious - we now know we have a beautiful son whose spirit will always be with us in our hearts <3

I can't quite come to grips with what it is I've been feeling and/or going through for the past week. I really want to thank all of you who have been nice to send us SMSes, call us, drop by our apt, comment in our journal, write us email, and perhaps dance for us :) We've been asking for a lot of space to be with ourselves and at the same time really appreciate those who've choosen to be close to us - you know who you are.

One of the experiences that catches us is the sight of children. To be with kids on the train on the way to Surin and then having the opportunity to play with Morn's neice was quite a joy. Part of me feels void of the dad I want to be right now and part of me is ok with the whole situation. We haven't shared with many of you - Talay was not a planned child and much of what's happened over the last 10 months has been reactive. We are proud to say we did our absolute best and feel like we come out stronger people dealing with the unexpected.

I was successful staying offline for almost a week and it felt really good - I know Morn appreciated it for sure! :) Spending time with Morn's family had me appreciate the extent Thais in the countryside spend with people around them - their neighbors and family. This is despite the fact that they own technology bits like the TV and telephone. Morn and I did manage to watch the news and found it a nice way to keep in touch with current events. (Jom, we didn't catch you reporting and pray you've come back safely from the conflicts in the south!)

I was happy to see mom and dad this past Wednesday - I haven't seen them for almost 2 years! It was also wierd - we've been in touch so well using email and Skype that it felt like we were still standing in LA!

Mom looks great as always and heh..heh..she really wants me to cut my hair! She also wants me to consider being a junior monk - something I've been considering on and off for over a year and a half now. I shared my concerns around taking care of my SI joint and my well being and grateful my mom firmly shares her opinions with me - I found myself being defensive at first and then let my guard down. I told myself I have this wkd to think about it and let my uncle know. This is such an important tradition for males born in Thailand to complete - it is a rite of passage for many.

Boy do I miss dad! Just sitting in my office sharing about what's happened over the past 2 years felt like a load off my shoulders. I really got how wonderful of a dad I have and how much he listens to me - I want to be a dad just like him. I really look forward to spending some quality one-on-one time with him before he leaves for the states. I have many life choices ahead of me in the next few weeks.

So what direction am I to take in my life? Work has not been a priority, volunteering has been fun with my finances in order until end of the year. Mom & dad were really nice to bring creature comforts I wanted from America here - we have fun brushing using Tom's Gingermint toothpaste! Little things like these make getting up in the morning not so much of a chore!

I got a bunch of upgrades for my mini and of course, my latest toy - a new digital camera! I bought this camera to share all the pictures of Talay with y'all and it's going to have to have a whole new purpose to it right now. One thing I can say is we're having quite a bit of fun making movies! :)

"Things" aside, now is a time for Morn and I to reevaluate our lives, our relationship, and our choices. We do not have any plans to discuss having another child until the new year - in fact, we are open to going our own ways and giving each other some space - many of you know it's been a really intense 10 months clearing our past for our child.

Thanks again for all your support - the most important thing we want to leave you with is we're ready to move on and create a new future. We invite you to keep dancing with us and do be in touch!

Love,
Morn and Chin

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Depeche Mode - Pimpf